Hello

I decided not to do my algebra homework because it is due in two hours and I hate math. But, I have an A in the class and we get the lowest grade dropped. Anyways. I'm now working at the Rocky Mountain Chocolate Factory in the Otay Ranch Mall. I like working there; there isn't much pressure. Things have really shaped up in the recent weeks. Money is tight, but then again it will always be. All I have to look forward to is my next paycheck. And the next. And the next. Ridiculous isn't it? Here's something from my moleskin. I think I wrote this partially in Philosophy and Music. "I've come to realize we are born with a sense of nudity in our identity. We are born like hermits without a shell, and we crawl into one the moment we encounter a group of people that seems welcoming and seem to have it all together. They'll give you something to 'live' for, a routine, and list of things that are o.k. and things that are not. We slowly but surely are housebroken into whichever mold we seem to think is best. Mine was religion. I had this misconception that if I acted, felt, and looked a certain way, I would fit in with the group and feel o.k. with the modern Protestant version of God. I lived in this shell for most of my high school years, not taking into account the fact that the world was spinning and changing every minute, and that my shell will not survive in the real world because it is fragile, and it only works at a private religious school with 100 students. When I graduated I finally felt myself come out of it. It's been amazing. Don't get me wrong; I still believe in God. Just not the one I did in high school. I feel like I'm an active member of this flux in the universe we call 'real life' and I wouldn't have it any other way. For the first time in years I am out of my shell. I am 'naked'. So I'm deciding to live 'naked'; to be who I am, to say what I feel, to smoke cigarettes whenever I feel like it, to listen to whatever I want, to associate myself with whoever I want. I believe that we God respect our identities as individuals and our dignity. Why would God want us to be clones of a 'G' rated person. God wants me to be me and to follow Him; He doesn't want me to become someone else then to follow Him."